i hate when people change for the worst.
i know people change, ive changed, but changing for the worst= not good.

to be honest, lately, i have not been happy with who i am. i dont know why.

i always feel not good enough, for anyone.

whatever. fuck life.

I'm seriously beginning to think life hates me.

Hi, i'm Taylor, the "goodie, goodie"

so apparently, i am a goodie goodie.
why?
because i...
have morals?
set standards for myself?
act like an adult sometimes?
take responsibility for myself?

is that why?

i always thought that was all part of growing up, i'm 16 years old.
im going off to college in 2 years i need to start learning by myself, and not act like a child all the time. not saying that i dont like to have fun and act like a kid, that i am, but in some situations you have to fight for yourself, your parents arent always going to be there for you. but hey, to each is there own.

it's time to start growing up :]

oh how i wish i could be a teenager forever.

summer is offically here. yes on june 21st it was offically the first day of summer, minus the fact it didnt feel like summer and didn't look even remotly close to it, but hey its chicago i wouldn't be surprised if it started snowing tomorrow. summer started off with a couple trips to the beach where both times i was redder than a tomatoe, and could have easily deemed the name "lobster" although i would have to drop kick anyone who said that. some summer drama that i wish i could say i would love to avoid but somehow it finds me, i don't really do anything, except open my big mouth because i have something to say. [i really should stop doing that]. but i think that will be the only drama i will run into and i'm pretty sure i won't because im not one too be involved in it, i dont do much. all i have to say is i hurt someone i really care about. never again, if i have something to say i will use nice words, not ones that could hurt you so bad. i was a stupid moron for doing that, but i did get my point across, but its still not right. other than that, i attended the B Bash yesterday, or two days ago, which ever you look at for the time after 12. i would love to say it was a happy go lucky, cute little concert, but it was far from that. drunken people, fights, and a whole lot of ghettoness[not that its wrong! i like to get my pop lock and drop it on] but still those three things, dont mix to well. but i saw my Hilary Duff [yes you can laugh now, but hey i dont care shes amazing] and like i said she was simply amazing, a good girl, which obviously didnt go down to well with the "crowd" if you wanna say. but meh i enjoyed myself. jonas brothers in 19 days, im truely excited, but im even more excited for the fact that its at six flags which, in my eyes, the best place because i truely love rollercoasters and rides and such. it'll be a blast. frick yeahhh.

also recently i have been attracted to old school music, well not extremely old school, but ya know your '90's music. Aaron's Party, How I Beat Shaq, Spice Up Your Life, MMMBOP. all those good "wholesome" songs before slappin a bitch and giving head hoes were popular lyrics in songs. but there is one that i really enjoyed, Baha Men. "Who Let the Dogs Out" favv song when i was about in 6th grade i believe. [although it was a remake, it was done rather well].

well its time for me to go. updated this bad boy since i havent in a serious long time.

with love mother fathers,

taylor tiara.

but i'll leave you with one question:

who really did let the dogs out??

today, has got to be the worst day i've had in a while.

1. female things. oh joy.
2. my best friend doesnt even wait after school anymore?
3.i leave my cell phone at lindsey's house.
4. my 2 best friends are way too obsessed with their boyfriends.

i probably sound like a drama queen. but when your best friends care more about their boyfriends than you it starts to hurt. oh well. i dont need a boyfriend im happy with being by myself, i want to know i truely am and what im looking for in a boy, not just dating anyone that comes along. oh well, i guess things will fall into place eventually.

Wednesday May 1st = a really bad day.

meh.

cause an empty room can be so loud, too many tears to drown them out, just hold on<3

When Life puts you to the test, show em what you got.

can you believe it's already may? i really can't.
meh means school's almost over.

my play went okay. my acting was supposedly good. i feel bad for my partner, he got so nervous he forgot his lines, we, and the audience were able to laugh about it too bad it was a drama bwhaha.

"Taylor, you were so good you made your uncle, a grown man cry."

i really didnt think i did that good. but i guess i did.

my weekend was filled with sillyness, weirdness, and just plain messed up (in a really good way!)

me + lindsey + sarah = total otal and utter insanity.
they are def my bestfriends<3


i dont understand when people sulk over stupid little things. people need to learn to move on and accept change.
meh. whatever.sometimes when you try talking to them you can only do so much they have to succeed these things on their own. but i'll always be there for you if you need a good talking =].

trust in the lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding <3


peace.love.happiness.

tee gee.

all the lonely people where do they all come from? all the lonely people where do they all belong?

jesus owns.
i have to say, that is the greatest action figure ever, i mean who thinks of making jesus into an action figure? i certainly do not.

summer is coming, can i believe sophomore year is nearly over, def. not.

so i finally got a compliment for playing the upright bass in orchestra that is a very rare thing to come across considering we do nothing. it was good to hear that im doing a good job at playing the classic song Eleanor Rigby, i mean, come on its the Beatles.
"you basses, you have an important part and your playing it amazingly." =]

"bass players are a special breed, you know you want to play that instrument." fo sho mrs. v, fo sho.

lots of shyte has gone down in the family department, and im not getting involved. im keeping my big mouth shut, cause then i shall open up a new can of worms which i am not to keen on doing. but everything is going to be good. i know it, i feel it.



my play is friday, i'm so excitedly nervous. mhm.

uno momento.
are you from tennessee?
cause your the only ten-i-see.

boy, oh, boy. my favorite pick up line by far.
i would use it ;) haha.